frustrations and fears

[macy stuarts]

She may not have been there long, but Macy was already starting to be at the university, for her it felt too much like she was back at school, which she had hate. The only good thing about being there was that she didn't have to deal with her father ignoring her at home, she knew he was ashamed of her because of what she was, it’s not like she wasn't ashamed of it herself it was why she kept it a secret but when she was losing control of it, it was hard to deal with, it’s why she had took to spending her time in her dorm, an empty classroom or in the library since not many people chose to spend there time there. It’s in the library she found herself today, just flicking through a book, she wasn't even paying attention to what she was looking at, she was too distracted by the fact everyone in the room was watching her. She had felt flattered at first until she had realized it was the stupid allure from the veela side of her that they were attracted to, not her. It was always the allure, she was surprised no one had worked out what she was by now, especially since she was struggling to keep that side of her under control so the staring was happening a lot lately. It was starting to annoy her every time she looked up someone new was sat watching her, others were trying to impress her it was starting to make her sick.

Having enough of every male making a fool of himself in front of her she closed the book and stood up, seeing the disappointment on their faces she groaned “stop staring at me and get a life none of you would ever have a chance with me, so just leave me alone” she makes her way to the back of the library, out of sight from everyone else, at least she wouldn’t have to deal with them staring at her anymore, well not until she decided to show her face again. She would happily hex everyone of them out there but she knew that would most likely get her expelled and she had only just started to get back to doing what she loved she wasn’t about to lose her chance to play Quidditch again, not over some moronic boys. She had never been good at controlling the allure she gave off but over the years she had gotten better, but with the stress of starting here and having to hide it again she had started to lose control of it, typical really.

She found herself in the back of the library, from the layers of dust on everything she could only assume no one ever came to this part so she hoped she would be safe, well until she needed to leave she would be safe. Leaning against the wall she slid down to the floor, crossing her legs. She leans her head back and closes her eyes just trying to ignore everything around her, thinking about being up in the sky, it was the only thing that ever calmed her down, she decided she would have to go flying soon well she needed to start getting ready for the Quidditch seasons, she needed to get the team ready for matches. She was so lost in her thoughts that she hadn’t heard the footsteps that were nearing where she was.

Her eyes shot open as she heard someone clearing their throat in front of her, she looked up at them, wanting them to leave her alone, the thought of hexing them came back to mind “no Macy not a good idea” she muttered to herself not realizing she had spoke out loud “can I help you? Or are you just going to stand there all day looking like a moron?” she pulled herself from the floor as she looked at the person in front of her “hmm maybe I should introduce myself, I’m Macy, Macy Stuart you may have heard of me, and you are?”

[isabelle tiller]

Bella had to sneak back into school that day and she was still in her killing buzz so she thought she would sleep her full belly of blood off away from people to stop her feeling anymore and getting kicked out. She snuck in and went straight to the back where no one ever goes. She sat down in a dark corner and eventually snoozed off. 

Most people think vampires don't sleep she still is a bit human and even though she doesn't like human food she still needs sleep. She fell asleep and when she woke she was late. She would lose her head if it was screwed on she flew off to class. She left her bad there with her wand. After classes she went back to the library she had to find her things and fast. She could not send Peggy to her dad again telling her again, she had lost something. She worried her dad sometimes. 

She started walking up and down the bookshelves. and started singing to herself. with her dream like enchanting voice. She did not even know the words were escaping her lips as she sung to herself quietly. 
"Yeah,
We're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time
It's miserable and magical.
Oh, yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines
It's time

Uh oh!
I don't know about you
But I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don't know about me
But I'll bet you want to
Everything will be alright"

Bella soon forgot what she was in the library for she was wandering up and down the buck cases. There was a few mumbled from over in the main study area. She glanced over her shoulder but she was far away and nobody was coming her way. She ran her finger along the spin of a book. It was something about the history of vampires. She had heard about the book and how it bored readers into been easy victims she chuckled and slid it off the shelf. She would have to read this later. She carried on looking for her bag after she remembered what she was looking for. A few moments later she saw someone sitting on the floor. She was curious as her bad was at the end. She looked lifeless. Had she fed at school? She walked up to the person and cleared her throat. Before she could say a word the girl started yelling at her. 

She stepped away. Listening to the girl her eyebrows raised. she introduced her and she had never heard of her. "I'm sorry i thought i....well..doesn't matter sorry for disturbing you. I'm Isabelle and i haven't heard of you should i have?" She said in her dream like hypnotic normal voice. She looked the girl up and down she was nothing special and rather off putting to Bella. There was something different about her that did not apply to her vampire nature. Her eyes trailed back to her face. She clutched the book she had picked up to her chest and looked at this girl. She did think highly of herself. 

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[macy stuarts]

Macy was taken back by the idea that she had never heard of her but in a way she was thankful, she eyed the girl up and down as she introduced herself “Ahh the little half Vampire? yes well I know you at least. the first years seem to think it’s marvellous to have someone of your kind here I on the other hand am shocked they would let something so dangerous on campus” she shrugs she didn’t really care that there was a half vampire on campus, it made a change from all the purebloods and Half-bloods, she generally had it out for anything less than pureblood, her father would kill her if she began being friendly with anyone below that, even if she was below it herself.

“I most say I am rather surprised that you have never heard of me, everyone around here seems to know who I am, or at least the ones that don’t well lets just say they don’t mind staring at me, watching every move I make. quite eerie if I do say so myself” she picked her bag up and put the strap over her shoulder ready in case she had to make a quick exit, she didn’t think it was likely though, she believed she would be able to take on the half breed if she needed to, she didn’t seem to look like the sort that would attack, Macy on the other hand would be willing to attack just to get a response from her.

looking at the book the girl was clutching she rolled her eyes, amused at the idea of her having to read about her own kind “your going to read a book about your own kind? explain why you would need to read a book on stuff you should already know, curiosity of did they get it right? or is there really stuff you don’t even know about yourself?” she thought both options was highly amusing, when she had found out about her own heritage she had read everything till she knew about what she was, true she then went on to ignore the whole thing but at least she knew who and what she was. she took the book from the girls clutched hand and flicked through it “not really a good read, plenty of better books about your kind”

[isabelle tiller]

Bella looked at the girl, she had not killed this girl. that was one thing she was worrying about but the girls deminer. She was shocked she did not know what to say she looked at the floor. she did not know what to say. She had gone all the way through hogwarts with what she was. They were fine with it why was this girl so shocked. If the teachers were fine with her being there why did she have a problem. By the scent of her blood she was just as much of a freak as her. Did she know? or was she hiding it? If so she was doing a better job than she ever did. But then drinking human blood is kind of hard to go unnoticed. 

Bella did not know what to say this girl thought highly of herself. When she snacked the book from her arms and started belittling her she shewed at her lips. She was bad mouthing the book and all she was curious about is how it was written and not what he said about her kind. She knew all that with how she was brought up. "i know everything i need to.......But there is a history about this book that is particularly pleasing to me......its said that it was written to bore people into a state of borden enough to make easy victory" She said in her mystical voice shyly and looking at the floor. She could not look at this girl. She was rather scary. Someone Bella would not normally talk to but she thought she had killed her and that was her mistake trying to talk to her. Trying to be nice for once bella is now feeling awkward. 

She did not know if it was a sudden urge of been sick of feeling crap of a way to get the girl to shut up but she flashed her fangs to the girl and looked at her face and into her eyes. "Believe me i would not want to know who you are and if you think everyone likes looking at you, then you're wrong as your repulsive to me..............have you smelt yourself?" Bella was talking about the smell of her blood. She liked that about her vampirism. She often thought that her one true love if she ever found them she would be hypnotised by the smell of their blood. 

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[macy stuarts]

she tilts her head to the side a smirk on her face "something wrong? finally realize you don't belong here?" laughing lightly at the half vampire, she was expecting more of a fight from her but here she was letting her say what she wanted about her, it ruined the whole idea of getting in a fight if she was too timid, but what did she expect she had been sorted into Hufflepuff she could never get one of them to fight with her, it was usually one sided, he hexing them. but when she ran into the half vampire she expected at least a little more of a fight but nothing.

she flicked through the book and yawned dramatically "oh yeah I heard about that, but it is quite boring most mean you and your kind are just as boring, if this accurate that is" she held the book out for her "take it then" she waited for her to take it. "lucky for me I read it when I was at home a way from any of your kind, my father thought it be best I knew what I was going up against if I ever run into your kind, and you know what? I could take anyone of your kind on if they are like you" she shrugs as she leans against the wall.

"oh trust me every guy in school, they can't keep their eyes off me" she shakes her head when she asked her if she has smelt herself "I can't say you smell all that nice to me either but whatever right?" she crosses her arms as she watches her a smirk spread on her face "if I smell so bad at least I know you won't try and sink your teeth into my neck then" she had realized that she was on about her blood but more importantly her veela blood running through her, at least she hadn't figured out what she was.